Fear plagues me. What is it about being able to believe something that you can touch, taste, hear or feel? Do these things all point to having a greater assurance of something over just believing, period? (Did that make sense?) Basically put – Belief by sight versus belief by faith.

So here’s my most recent fear. And, as I sit here typing this, it seems quite ironic and ungrounded. But when you cultivate unhealthy levels of fear, this is only to be expected.

Pregnancy hasn’t been a piece of cake so far. I mean, I am so thankful that everything has gone well and its been a healthy one so far. But I have had a lot of fear of the unknown, of all the things that could go wrong. These concerns are ungrounded though. The baby (and its a ’she’) is growing just fine, and she is now strong enough to kick her mommy so that her mommy can feel it. And while I believe that I should never take a little kick for granted, I have been foolishly hanging on to these ‘felt assurances’ as the only way I can tell that this little life inside of me is still alive.
There is nothing wrong with me counting her kicks or getting worried if she’s been quiet. Its all part of being aware in the pregnancy, and as I become more and more aware of my body and the baby, the more easily I will be able to tell if something is wrong.
As I type this, Phyra Grace is kicking, and I am reminded that God is completely sovereign and in control of everything I love and hold most dear to me. My fretting is not going to help anything. Why should I need to worry about the miracle of life that GOD put inside, that GOD is knitting together, in His perfect design and according to His perfect plan? I NEED NOT WORRY! We have to take life one day at a time. That is all we can handle. If something comes up, God will give us the strength to deal with it, but I am trying to remember to focus on the ‘today’, and thank Him for it.

Whatever the circumstance you face in this life, pray that God will take away the worry or the anxiety you may have. To quote that oh so familiar song, “He’s Got the Whole World, in His Hands”. He really does. Lay down all the things that plague your conscience – maybe its not feeling like you are good enough, or fear of being left or abandoned. Or maybe its a past sin that still haunts you. Lay it down. Put it in His hands. There is no better place to rest your worries or concerns. He is the Creator and Giver of Life – He is the Sustainer. Not a thing creeps or crawls without His knowledge. There is not a thought in your head that He doesn’t know (wow, now that is convicting, huh! )
So, in this little circumstance that I have been facing, I remind myself as well, that I need to give Him Phryra Grace every day and trust that HE is sovereign and He is her Creator