*You will have to excuse my writing style tonight – it is course and mediocre – my excitement has made it difficult to express more eloquently. And you must also excuse this little ‘break’ from a more ’sermonette’ post. . . this is just a little piece of my life tonight

Life is SUCH an adventure. This is the understatement of the YEAR, of the CENTURY. . .
I sit here amazed and can’t quite take in the fact that life changed again, in the course of 24 little hours. One moment, I was sitting on my sorry butt, poking around the internet posting my resume in a hopeful attempt to get a job, and then, ‘plop!’ God dropped a job right in my lap, and all I had to do was send a positive email and get a flooding yes in return. WOW – God works amazing!

It was out of the blue, unexpected and just downright COOL to see how this came about, after a period of 2 months waiting for something to transpire.

I am still holding my breath, but don’t we always before something begins? Its like the moments after you just get engaged. You glow from your inside out with the love of your future spouse. A diamond is now wrapped around your finger and glitters every time you move your hand. You breathe in deep and wonder, ‘can this actually be real? Is this happening to me?’ It is, it is. Breath in deep and believe.

God is such a good God. I know that life is so hard to understand sometimes, but He brings us good things. My husband and I are in a trial of waiting for children, but He is bringing us blessing after blessing while we wait on Him. This wait would be futile if we did not trust that He is faithful. He always keeps His promises. His will is perfect and we trust it and hold to it. We do not know where this road is going, but we believe by faith, not by sight.

We have spoken of beginnings now. Perhaps we will go back to touch on it more later. But now, we must speak of change.

Not to sound trite and cute, but the adage, ‘change happens’ should not be a foreign concept to us, for there is truth in it. Change comes to us many times as a welcome guest in our lives, inviting new possibilities, circumstances and situations. We anticipate going to college, meeting that significant other, travel to places we have not yet seen, and I could list many other things that could easily fall into this type of change.
Some of these things may be unexpected to us, but we have desired them, so they are accepted gladly.

Change can also frighten the hell out of us. A job loss, a spouse’s leaving, the death of a loved one, and numerous other unpleasant life events can make change unbearably painful. Though these are events that we have not expected, we did not think that they would happen to us.
When I was 15, a crisis happened in my family that no one would have ever expected would happen. It rent the family apart, and before I turned 18, my parents had finalized their divorce. This epoch is the point of my life flip, that dynamic place where normalcy was thrown out the window.

It seems strange to start at ‘chapter one’. Should I begin this book of life with a prologue, a stepping stone to start the journey? Heavens, where am I going to go with this? Is this just a false start? Will the words come if I just keep writing? Am I too flooded in thought right now to do this? How do I organize myself? Where do I begin???

Well, where do beginnings begin? We all have to start somewhere. How else do we gain experience? Only through the experiencing of something. Something usually big. Dynamic. Altering. Mind-blowing. Jolting. An abrupt change in the everyday, normal that we have always known. Change always begins and ends something.
I think of birth. A woman conceives and her whole life changes. A new life is created inside of her, through one act of passion with someone. This creation is life-altering. The change is slow, but grows with a belly, and days ticking by. Finally, a child is born. From that second of conception on, life is. At first breath, the baby just birthed cries, and we realize this more fully. We always seem to ‘realize’ things when we can touch them, feel them, hear them. Until that point, we seem to dance around the reality, not quite believing it. We are sadly, a faith by sight people. We may know that the woman is pregnant from the way she looks, specifically, the way her belly grows, but we cannot see the child yet.
Where is the change in this picture? The end of being just a woman, and the beginning of being a mother.

Turning back to the beginning again. . . Look at your life squarely in the eye. Where do you see the change, that point at which things took a turn for the better, for the worse . . . ? How did you get to where you are now? Who have you become and how did it happen?